I think I am getting the hang of this.....

So I started my 3rd week of classes as a Medical Transcriptionist. I am finally getting things down and I am finding a good routine for me and the family. I do a lot of doctor diction so by the end of some nights typing a blog entry seems like it will be what breaks me. I am really enjoying being back in school. My quaters are 8 weeks long and I have to say they move along nice and fast. If all goes well I will graduate in the spring of next year. I am looking forward to being able to know that I finished some schooling. I have always started, but never finished. I guess this was just a personal thing for me. I want to keeping going after I finish this program. I want to be able to go and see how far I can go.

Good luck to me.

A new path.....

I know it has been a little while since I have written. I started taking some online classes and I just finished my 1st week. It was a little rough trying to figure things out so that I could still be a mom, wife (from 1000 miles away), and a student. Now that I am into my 2nd week. I think that I have figured out the best routine. I get up with the baby early, like 6-7 am.

I feed the baby and give him his morning bottle, yes my 16 month old still gets a bottle! WHen he is calm, happy, and playing I go and start working on my school work. I have been doing this for a couple of days and it seems to be the best routine. My older kids like to sleep in so I get a good 2- 3 hours of school time in the morning. Last week I was trying to study at night after the kids went to bed and that was a total bomb. I am not a night person. I like my sleep way to much. I need my sleep. I like this lay out much better.

I was really nervous about starting classes, because of being a mom and having all these things on my plate. I have to say that I feel very good about doing this. I feel like I am at a place in my life that I can handle this. I think I am heading into a new season in my life that I can handle this.

Maybe I am heading into that transition from having babies and being a young mom to raising the ones I have and being able to focus a little more on me. When I first started having kids I focus all my energy on them and starting my family. Now I feel like I need to focus a little more on myself so that I am ready to head into the older years with my kids and husband.

As I am sitting here in the ICU with my mom, I am wondering how and why Heavenly Father gives us these challenges. I know the text book answer" because they make us strong," but how strong do we need to be and when so we know when we have hit the limit? Is that when we die and go back home to be with him? I have started to feel rather numb to all of the things going on. My step-mom passed away in the beginning of May after a rather shocking and quick battle with cancer. My husband is on Active duty and we don't have any date to when that will change. I have 4 great kids who want to spend time with me and I spend all that I can with them. I am taking some on-line classes for the first time in 8 years. I am learning how to be a mom and dad all at once. I feel like I am dealing with situations that other people deal with when they are older and not all at once. I am only turning 30 this year.

Why do I have to be so strong right now? What else in going to happen? I am not sure what I have to be so strong for? I am starting to fear the future. What does Heavenly Father have for me next that all these things are supposed to be preparing me for???????

Back Home..

I noticed that I haven't posted in a while. I have been so busy with life and with 4 kids.

I got a special treat. I got to fly down to Florida this past weekend (Father's Day) to see my honey. It was a nice little vacation for me, being that I went all by myself. The kids stayed with .my great, wonderful sister.

It was so nice down there. The base is right on the beach, so we spent a lot of time walking on the beach and picking seashells for the kids.

We took some video of the hermit crabs. They were all over the beach. We figured it must be mating season, because they were crawling on each other and they were covered in this weird foam.

I got to see the jets fly over. That scared me right out of bed one morning. I wasn't sure what the noise was. It started out sounding like a garbage truck, but then it just kept getting louder and louder, and closer and closer. I woke my hubby who was with me and asked him what it was? I was slightly panicked. He said it was the jets doing their fly overs.

On Monday I started taking some summer online courses. I am excited and kinda feeling over whelmed. It has just been so long since I have been in school. I am afraid to fail.

I know that I have to study a lot and me and the kids have set up some things that they have to do and can do while mom is studying. I lock myself in my bedroom while the baby is sleeping. The older kids get to do almost whatever they like while I am in my room. They like that part.

Well I have to go...... Back to studying.

We have a foster dog!!!

After we returned our Jinty dog, we decided that we would sign up for fostering rescue dogs.

Our apartment manager works for the dog rescue, that is where I got the idea. She had to go out of town for a funeral so she asked me if we would dog sit for her. We said "YEAH!!"

The kids are totally in love with this dog. She is a black lab, greyhound mix. She is about 4 months old. Cutest dog ever. The girls have been walking her all afternoon. It has been so fun having a dog again. Even if it is just for the weekend. She is up for adoption so I may have to look into that...... The kids are begging to adopt her.

Today was a really nice day. Last night all the kids ended up in my bed, so I went and slept in one of the girl's beds. Not to bad either! O got up this morning with the baby and took him int.o the shower with her. I heard it all this morning. I was waiting for her to come and get me, but she never did. After the shower she got him dressed and made all of us "smoothies." She even brought my smoothie to me in bed. It was nice!!!!

The sun was out and we spent most of the day outside. We had pizza for dinner and I am going to have to take a extra long walk tonight because I ate 3 pieces of pizza. I couldn't help it. It was so good. BBQ Chicken pizza!!!AHHHHH......

I am not sure what else could happen today. It has been one of those crazy days. I can't seem to keep the house clean. If it's not one room it's another. My baby (16 months) is at that age where he is into everything and driving all of us crazy. He likes to climb on the dishwasher when you are trying to load it, he climbs on the computer desk, he likes to open the bathroom door when you are going potty, he like to stand at the patio door and scream " Ma, Ma, Ma" at the top of his lungs, he climbs on the tables, he pinches me all the time, and he is extra whinny today.

My #3 son B has been being a classic terror. He tore out all the decreative flowers from our apartment building. He and 2 other boys were caught throwing rocks at the lawn mower man. I am not sure what to do with him. He has been doing these things that I am not sure if it's just being a 5 year old boy or if he is having behavior issues. I guess it could go either way. These are the times I miss my hubby the most.

These are the days that I am so glad that I use birth control!!! Oh, can that I have an up coming vacation. I am really looking forward to that. YEAH!!!!